Beautiful Worlds

It is kind.
It never fails.
It is patience.
It is not proud.
It is not jealous.
It does not brag.
It is not pretentious.
It is not exaggerated.
It is not quick-tempered.
It is neither rude nor selfish.
It does not seek its own interests.
It hopes all things and endures all things.
It bears all things and believes in all things.
It does not remember wrongs done against it.
It does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth.

To conclude,

I walked down the street.
There was a hole.
I didn't see it, and then I fell in.
It wasn't my fault, but it took a very long time to get out.

I walked down the same street.
There was still a deep hole.
I pretended not to see it and so I fell in again.
I pretend it's still not my fault.
Then again, it takes a long time to get out.

I walked down the same street (over and over again);
there was still the same deep hole.
I saw it. I fell in anyway.
It was a habit but I got out quicker this time.

I walked down the same street one last time.
There was a deep hole.
I saw it, so I walked around it.
I did not fall in!

And so, I walk down a different street.

Cash and bonuses.

" I bet you can't hit me with a quarter ".
No bullshit. Some shits aren't made to be au fait with.
psych!

God works His magic at the least expected time.
Outta the billions people in the surface of the earth, I now know I am one of the most fortunate ones. I am grateful for it. What are the chances for a person to have God Himself answered your prayers even if you know you are the least deedful person.

Now I really know I am at the right path on His willing and blessings. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

" A man is a magical creature. You can lock him out of your workshop, but you can't lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can't get him out of your mind. The heart that truly loves never forgets but the heart that really loves, accepts. "

When it's not right, it's left. When it's right, don't go left. When left is right, then it's better left. When right is left, then stay left. What's right, is always right. What's left isn't always left. What's right to be left, is better to be right because when being left isn't right, then you're already in the left side. So for now, just stand still between the left and the rights.

" Sekiranya ketentuan ini adalah satu kebetulan abadi yang tercipta khas untuk kamu dan aku, maka dengan segala penuh rasa rendah diri dan syukur, aku mendaki untuk mengenggam kemuncak mimpimu ".

" better by far you should forget and smile, rather than you should remember and be sad ".

I guess this month ain't a good start for me. Damn. I consider too much on others while others ain't considering me as much. Damn (again). Earlier this week I had an accident. I crashed Ma's car into the highway border in Damansara. Luckily, I wasn't injured. But the back of the car was wrecked! Damn!!! Fortunately for me, Daddy said he's gonna pay for the damage cost. Fiuh! I wanted to take the responsibility on it earlier as it was my fault. I was speeding on a slippery road. Those Defensive Driving Course I took last year during the selection for the Redbull Rookies Female Driver ain't working as I tried to control my car before it slammed the border. They say I was pretty lucky coz there's been tragic accidents on the same spot I crashed into. *Sigh*

Anyway, Firdaus got there as soon as I called him, informing I had an accident. Then I called my bro. On the next day, I finally told my parents about what had happened. As usual, they were making 'uneasy noises'. Ain't music to my ears, most definitely! *Sigh* At the end of the day, Me and Edeh send the car to the workshop for repair and Daddy finally said he'll pay the cost. A good lesson learn.

Moreover, I ain't feelin' my dough this month. Damn (again). I'm a bit stressed with the shop and all. Business is a bit slow nowadays. So as the shop next door. I just hope that it'll be better next week. Yesterday Ma went to the clinic to check her BP. Again, as usual, Ma's BP is rated high as she's been thinking too much from what she can bare. Daddy had to come back early from Labuan to Miri to be with Ma. More, that evening I got a text from Kakak saying that Daddy told her that the doc said there's a lump on Ma's left breast. They're running some test on Ma but for now, we yet to wait for the result as soon as possible. Damn, I'm so worried. Ma has nobody to take care of her back in Miri. I just keep my fingers crossed and pray that everything's gonna be just fine.

Anyhow, my day will always end in smile though. Firdaus has been with me the whole time and he always make me feel at ease. I can say that he's a part of my strength, day in and day out. If that's not lovin', I ain't know what it is then. Ngee~

I know something You don't know and I also know something You already know which You think I don't know but I do know now and so I let You know that I already know whatever it is that You think I don't know by not telling You what I know of what You think I don't. So now, You don't know what I know about You but I know You know about me. You know, I know but I know You don't know what I know. So now, I know You don't know.
Tisk Tisk.

Sudah tahu, pura pura tak tahu. Dah la pura pura tak tahu, tak tau malu plak tu. Kita ni yang tahu, pun pura pura tak tau. So, sama lah tak tau malu. But malu orang yang mula mula tak tau malu tu lagi tak tau malu.

Makes it twice shameless than us knowing it at the end of the rope. We who knew about it will smile cynically at those shameless faces as they walk pass us in nudity of a huge shame for the world to see. They bare their shameless faces and disrespectful dignity for the public to see. Better yet, they seek so desperately for attention which they are craving and still not getting it. Unfortunately for them, they even made desperate measures to try explore in every angle that they may think as possibility by chances. Pathetic little demons is what they are.

They say keep your friends closer but your enemy closer. Damn overrated.

Jealous or envious of me? I don't think so. Some people is just pissed with themselves for fucking up something they didn't realize how vital was previously. But when it's gone, they finally came to their senses and came searching for it. Fortunately, "one waste is another one treasure". So, my advice for them is that you had your chance and you blew it, BIG TIME. When you ruined your chance, doesn't mean you can ruin others one's. Take a step back and learn from what you had in the past. Do not come for what had gone and moved on. You never know how it affects your future and the presence.

Green monster!
You've frightening eyes.
You grind your awful teeth with such cunning face.
You live without a mind, without a heart, without a soul.
Even, without God.

Human jealousy and divine Ecstasy are eternal strangers.

You'd be an aggressive boxer, a repulsive dancer, a hopeless singer
And a useless storyteller.

Before you entered, I was the world's richest little queen.
But now that you are near me and I am in half for you,
I have become the poorest street-beggar.

You are my constant nightmare-mind.
You are my constant love-absence-heart.
Shortest is the distance between paradise to hell.

You are your own ultimate self-destructive-indulgence.
So stop ruining mine like you made to yours.
You blew your chance as fast as you want to ruin mine.
Stupid green greedy monster!

What if today is brighter but not tomorrow?
pray with me.